Today is a sad day in Portland City history, but also one that should be recognized for the true success at the heart of this matter. The success of motivating the thousands of people that signed the Recall Sam Adams petition, to stand up for their rights as voters and for what they believe is morally correct. Many of these people placed themselves in a position to feel public ridicule and even political retaliation from the Mayor’s office, and other offices of the City entangled in the grips of a tainted mayor.
Standing from where I am today, I count myself personally fortunate to have subjected myself to this process. I have learned an immense amount, and made friends that I will hold dear for decades to come. Among the frustration of losing acquaintances, losing certain stabilities in my life, and being persecuted by many in the Gay community, I know that it was well worth it. I am among a group of many who were willing to suffer the harsh consequences of making a stand against the dirty politics that are ruining our city, when the majority of people are too willing to be apathetic to the situation and not make their voices heard against a man they know isn’t the rightful leader of our city.
What frustrates me most though, is how many people told me they would not sign the petition because it was more important to them to have a Gay mayor in office. This is not a worthy reason. It has become a novelty more than a conquest, having Adams in office. He has not proven to the world that the Gay community is equal to all others, and he certainly has not shown the nation the quality of leadership that can come from the GLBTQ community. Sadly, as many people have already stated to me, he has reinforced the reasons why some people do not want the GLBTQ community to be in leadership roles, or have equal rights. One gentleman went as far as to say that “Adams should stay in office, to prove to the nation why Gays shouldn’t be politicians.”
It’s a marvelous success that a Gay man was elected into office, but it’s a vast travesty that he has remained in office through an “at-all-costs” approach to keeping himself in power. People have chosen to look past a botched election process, a long trail of lies, continued deceptions, and multiple other Gay careers and lives that have been ruined by this man, from Bob Ball to myself. Ball never lied, and was never the steering hand at a smear campaign. He told the truth, and brought a valuable question of integrity to the people. However, Adams responded with lies and denial of the facts.
The people of Portland know all these facts, and more, yet still chose to quietly pardon the situation, and not be bothered with the undeniable fact that a new leader is needed.
I want to thank every single person who committed to helping this campaign, and all of those who took the time to sign a petition. Regardless of our end result, the true success lays with those who chose to take a stand. Of those people, I want to acknowledge Senator Gordly for her love, compassion, guidance, and an example of honesty and morality that will forever benefit me. I also want to thank Teresa McGuire for her unfaltering dedication and persistence. She has shown me so much more than I could have ever asked for, and taught me a wealth of knowledge that has encouraged me to keep going.
Finally, I would like to thank the volunteers from our campaign that came to me and offered an un-measurable amount of support and love that has filled my heart and reignited a flame in me that has been missing since this whole mess began over a year ago. Those people; the ones who came to me and kept me warm with hugs and affirming letters, are the people that made this process possible for me. When faced with a world placing a magnifying glass over my actions, and analyzing all that I do, the compassion of those who did support me made all the difference.
Without people like Neola, Tom, Joe, Karin, Margaret, Larry, Gaye, Tyrone, Roy, Duke, Ricky and many others like the anonymous couple who reached out to me and invited me into their home for Easter dinner, I would still have a broken spirit. Today though, I am proud to be among these people, and know that we were all a part of a movement that will not stop with us. It will continue and will one day reach the seats at Portland City Hall, with a heavy bill they will have to pay to the people.
Beau Ellis Breedlove
A dear friend of mine has instilled a strong message in me; “Public service is a noble calling and profession.” This is a motto and inspiration that now runs deep in the veins of my decision to be a part of, and support the Recall of Mayor Sam Adams. This is a decision for which I will not make any apologies, because I know the community’s involvement in this recall effort is the best decision for the City of Portland.
I write this letter to you as an effort in the final days of the campaign, to gain the additional support and understanding that we need to ensure success. This isn’t success for myself, Senator Gordly, or any individuals involved. The success of this effort is measured by our ability to show the rest of the nation that the residents of our city will not tolerate being subject to a science experiment in government.
Sam Adams has not only admitted to lying to obtain office, he has continued to tell half-truths, mislead the public, and maintain an “At all costs” approach to keeping himself in office and creating a legacy for his name. A legacy that does not have the city at it’s core purpose, or the needs of the public, it is purely an attempt gain attention and keep up appearances.
Mayor Adams has proven his inability to properly run his office on numerous occasions; by publicly speaking out against other international political issues, stating it to be “an example of the moral standards of Portland”, which has caused an immeasurable up rise against Portland, resulting in what could potentially be un-repairable damage to the city’s economy. In addition, he has forced budget changes and new city policies through the City Council at an un-needed rush, not allowing the public to have their due amount of time to understand what he is proposing, or be able to effectively speak out against it.
The state of our city is crippled at the moment, and will continue to be as long as Adams is in his position. The entire nation has turned and pointed to Portland as being a comedy of errors that no one else is willing to clean up after. Is this what we want? More so, as a Gay man myself and part of the GLBTQ community, is this the type of representation we want from the first Gay man to hold this office? So often I hear that as reason for allowing him to stay in office, “Because he’s gay.” By saying that, those people imply that our community supports and aligns itself with Adams moral corruptness and dishonesty. I know that isn’t the truth, and I now that the GLBTQ community holds itself to higher standards than that. I also know that Portland is better than this.
We should never fear democracy and fear being involved in it. For that reason alone, I ask for your support of this campaign, to prove that the people’s voice does matter. There are no excuses for our Mayor to deceive us and put his legacy and desires before that of the city’s.
Just let it. Plain and simple. Let love take over. It’s all I’ve ever wanted, and all I’ll ever ask for. It’s the only thing that every person on earth has the ability to share with the rest. Tell someone how much you love them, right now. No delay, no excuses, just say it.
To all those people who have linked to my site, aka A PERSONAL BLOG- and have sent me nasty e-mails, or are commenting on online articles linked to my blog, try to get some brains. You make comments like I’m a fame seeker, and out for the attention, and a douchebag. Well, doesn’t it seem odd that I am not the one posting these links on online websites, some low-level media idiots are. Then, you people that HATE me are taking the time out of your day to read my blog and then post nasty comments.
Grow up, it’s the people like you who have no self confidence or morals, and chose to hide behind stupid screen names. Picking at everyone else in the world, anonymously, because you know in all reality you know nothing about me, or any of the other people you write about online. In reality, YOU are the losers, and YOU are the worthless, low life’s who need to go away.
When it comes down to it, I let everyone think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do and say nasty things, then I’m already better than them. To those of you who are kind, good people, who understand and support people like myself, remember that- If people take the time to bother with what you’re doing, and then try to be cruel to you, don’t worry about it because you’re already better than all of them.
It is beyond my comprehension how people justify a politician lying to them to be elected.
While working on the Sam Adams Recall Campaign, the most common response I get from people who do not want to sign the petition is “All politicians lie.” Are you serious? Are you seriously that far in denial that you cannot realize the difference between political promises or twisted words, and flat out lies and deception?
Okay, so most politicians do “lie” to some degree, but usually it is based around tax cuts or spending programs, or community improvements. Once they are elected into office though, they realize the difficulties and just how hard it really will be to get those things accomplished. So, it takes longer than expected or they just dont happen at all because it isn’t possible at the time.
What Sam Adams did though, was deny that he had a relationship with a minor (me), and then convinced the minor ( me again) to help him cover it up with the help of people like Mark Weiner. Then he took it a step further, and accused his mayoral opponent, Bob Ball, of running a smear campaign, and being a dirty politician. He publicly accused Bob Ball of making this rumor up, and being a liar. When in truth, Sam was the liar. But he is too big of a coward to admit to what he did, and face the potential consiquences. It was far easier for him to ruin Ball’s political career than it was to put his own on the line.
Then once he was elected, he publicly admitted to “Deceiving to the public to gain his election.” It’s a direct violation of city election guidlines, and furthermore a direct violation of the public’s trust.
He didn’t lie about policies or taxes, or anything to do with his job. He lied about having a relationship with a minor, and then covering it up. And to top it off, he brutally attacked a legitimate, and honest candidate.
Something else I wish more people understood; what it takes for me to be involved in the recall. Just two weeks ago I was collecting signatures at the Portland Saturday Market, when an older gay couple, probably in their 60′s, approached me and yelled, saying “You should be ashamed of yourself!” and “You’re an enemy to gays!”.
So I asked them why I should be “ashamed” of myself, and do you know what their answer was? “Because Sam is our first Gay mayor, and we need a Gay mayor!”
Are you flipping serious? So it’s more important that we have a Gay man in office, than it is to have a mayor with integrity, respect, honesty and loyalty? Personally, if Sam intended on being the first openly Gay man to hold that office, then he should have been responsible to an even high standard of integrity. The Gay card shouldn’t be a get-out-of-jail-free card for him. If he intended on representing the GLBTQ community, then he should have been prepared to be under scrutiny and should have laid a better example of being a gay man. Instead, he lied and reinforced the anti-gay fears that so many people have. So in reality, he didn’t do the Gay community much good, in fact I would go as far as to say he hurt us.
And to top it off, I asked that couple if they realized how difficult it was for me to put myself out there in public, surrounded by hundreds of people who are willing to come up to me and tell how awful I am. Well, I did it because I believe in myself and what I am standing up for. Do they realize how hard that is? When people yell at you, curse at you, and tell you “Just go away”, or “Die!”.
I stand up for what I believe in, and when dozens of people are quick to jump down my throat and tell me what a horrible person I am, that makes it pretty difficult. But still, I do what I know is right. I hoped that my willingness to do so would motivate others to do the same.
Okay, I’ll try not to trip while I get down from this soap box now…
A friendly reminder to those of you who may or may not know;
This evening at 7:30, we will be hosting the first event for The New Movement. It will be a chance for me to put a voice to the mission of this group, and better explain my hopes and aspirations.
So far we have had great response through RSVP’s, so if you could please RSVP by commenting on this posting, or
e-mailing me directly.
If you are unable to attend this evening, there will be a second gathering tomorrow eve at 8:00, at the same location. (listed below)
Location: The Tribute Gallery, at the SE corner of Flanders and Broadway, near downtown Portland.
Dancing with the enemy is my remedy.
No whispers. No exchanged information. No roles to play, and no hidden agendas. Just dancing. The simple role of being the dancer. The movement.
We will fumble, and we might trip on occasion, as we silently find our position in the steps of the waltz.
Through the dance we communicate. Through the dance we become one. All differences dissolve.
Our outside personas and reasons for living are stripped away to the bare common thread that has sewn us together. The purest simplicity of being human. Man and Man. Woman and Woman.
Together we dance, and sway. The world drops away, and we’re left with this. Dancing with the enemy.